// Journaling #1//
My naturopathic doctor said I should journal again. So I am putting it here because I won’t forget to do it.
In any case… lots of changes happening. Started out bad, but things are turning out better than expected. I thought that heartbreak would tear me down so fully that I wouldn’t be able to get up. But I am healing so fast. I have realized i love myself and my life alot more than I knew. I think subscribing to the thought processes of Head Up, Heart Open is really helping. Even helps with posture!
I have some misgivings about all of this though. My fears right now are that I am too old to start over waiting for love again at 31. I know people do it all the time but I can see how so many people settle because they are this age or older, and I don’t want to do that. I don’t want fear to dictate my heart. Nor do I want hate or malice to either.
My intentions right now are to be the best version of my self possible. Which includes focusing on school and the path laid out by that, given that I made a REALLY fantastic choice in going back to school. Also I want to focus on overall physical health - not just weightloss but how I feel inside and outside physically. And lastly I want to really make sure to connect with people that I love and who support me because I really want them to know how much they mean to me and that spending time with them makes me so utterly happy.
He hasn’t contacted me since he did it. I am at a loss about that. Also I want my hair dryer back!
Constantly moving forward,